27 posts tagged “black and white”

shadows
cool
dark
aloof
comforting
reducing objects to simple shapes
flowers fences and people
just a plain flat shape
no complications, easy
shadows are not harmed by being stomped upon
they remain the same ambiguous shape
most visible upon sunshiny days
the yin to the suns yang
balance
the sun is hiding this morning
my shadows are gone
my many forms
I walk along the sidewalk
my own shadows merge
I am the flowers
I am the leaves
I am the fence
I am the pole
I am the sign
I am the person

negative -
1. the situation with the girl is still in serious limbo
2. both are being such stubborn bitches
3. anxiety attacks are happening
4. I bruised my heel doing something stupid today, I was perching myself on a large rock waiting for the girl to come out of class so we could go have lunch, I slipped and smacked heel on rock trying not to fall all the way off.
5. I have a feeling that the girl I fired from the photography gig for SIL's wedding is in my photography class, Wednesday might be awkward

positive +
1. the sun is shining and it is warm and beautiful outside
2. after this weekend the wedding will be over
3. I have class tomorrow and get to see friend in class there, see what she has been up to
4. husband and I went for a nice early morning bike ride on Sunday
5. I took bunches of really nice portraits of the girl while she was here yesterday, she will be back here in about an hour. I need to get housework done. she kind of breaks up my day weird
6. I lost another pound of flubber
7. I am craving nasty food less and less
9. I feel like I have pulled myself out of my heavy mood, I am feeling much lighter and I know after the wedding I will feel Bunches lighter still
10. My sister had her gall bladder removed on friday and all went well, but I am unsure of how to spell gall, or is it gull, that is the bird right? Well she did not have a bird removed from her. You get it right?
11. I have kept the rooms that I cleaned last week clean, for the most part.

My hair seems to be getting darker as I get older, but it is sprinkled with grey hairs now. I am okay with that. I don't mind looking my age, my age is not so bad!
My weekend was really nice and relaxing, we got all of our stuff we needed to get done on Saturday so we had Sunday to be lazy. Nice!
I guess I really don't have much to say today.
So I am posting my to do list.
*clean kitchen
*clean dining room
*clean bathroom
*litterboxes
*put more laundry away
*take a walk
*take pictures of the niece for a modeling agency appointment tonight
*start and finish two loads of laundry (this is the week to get all of it done!)

I have been feeling better day by day. I know I just need to pull myself out of commission for a bit. But the Wedding, I have bunches planned for that, I mean you only get married once Right? I want this day to be special for SIL. My day was for me. I am just trying to make sure she has that same experience too. She deserves that. ;-) So there is that, I am a little worried about it, but mostly a joyful job. I don't really mind trying to give her the best.    
but... there is more...
I am kind of sucked back into the strange world of the other SIL and her teen aged daughter. You see, my SIL kicked her out to live with her father. A father who has not really spoke to her for the last 7 years even though he lives in the same town. So she left her fathers place due to problems with step mother and step sibling. SIL still will not let her back. So teen aged niece is kind of homeless. She is crashing here for a night or two, she has summer school during the day. sigh...
Yesterday she told me that she will be here at 12:30 because that is when class is over, but she called this morning to tell me she will not be here until 4:30 because of a certain class that has popped up. Um... she has Never been very good at lying. She is probably not even at school today, but you know what?
Not my responsibility. Her parents are dropping the ball with her, it is not my job to do it for them. She needs a place to sleep and food to eat, fine. But if she fails to show up for these, I will not worry myself sick. She is not my responsibility.

For some these words may seem cold. For others you will be proud of me for not making it my job. I am proud of me for not stressing out about all this. They are making their own choices, they are wrong ones, but not my job to fix. I am Growing! ;-) Yay! Haha! I am just worried about getting too close, I am worried about getting sucked into the drama. I am trying really hard to not give away all of my rescorces and not having enough for me and my own husband. I feel stronger this time, but I also feel the pull of the undertow.

Now I need to :
1. do dishes, they are Out Of Control
2. capture motion with Ruby
3. rinse and freeze some of the strawberries I bought at the market yesterday

I think that is it, I am going to go easy on myself today.

Lungs feel thick and sticky, nose is plugged but not draining, eyes feel as though they may pop out and bounce across the room. Other than that I feel great! :D
Last Night was the first night of photography class. My friend Sherry is in it as well. But all the others are new. The teacher told everyone that in my head, my imagination takes over (cannot remember his exact words) but it was a compliment, but it also sounded like he was dancing around calling me crazy. Haha! So, there was this guy, I don't quite know why he was in this introduction class, as he has been a photographer for many years, and has all the accessories , ALL the accessories he made darn sure we all knew this, he would interrupt the teacher and argue with him about stuff. Um That is annoying, just let the teacher talk. I hope he feels above this class and stops coming. He is there to show off, nice, thanks. :-l

Otherwise it was a lovely evening.

To Do today:
1. burn CD of the meet up with the belly dancer, this was supposed to be done weeks ago. EEEK!
2. order pictures online of family to make dad a nice album
3. make a flash diffuser with a plastic gallon jug
4. make a list of gifts to buy for the Spring birthday party this weekend, maybe I should send out a gift list to family, telling them I was a) gift card for camera shop, or b) happy socks
5. take a nap, eat tons of strawberries before they go bad, and take another nap. ;-)


I was wondering, If I created a meet-up for Voxers in this area, would any of you come? Just throwing this idea up in the air. We could go on a photo walk, or eat lunch, or both! What do you think?

Things on Tuesday, I don't know what kind of theme to do today, Hmmm.... Maybe a right and wrong list.
A black and white with tons of gray in the middle list

What I find wrong in the world this morning.
1. Parents using their children as tools to hurt one another, It hurts everybody including yourself!
2. I saw on the news another human foot was found in BC. It is strange to me, 5 feet in all have been found now. Creepy Stuff!!
3. We still cannot get strawberries at the farmers market due to no sunshine to ripen them! I want a strawberry Shortcake Dang it!
4. that the news is filled with stories of spending millions of dollars keeping a basketball team in town, while people are still suffering from floods last year. That we place such importance on sports teams that are all about money anymore instead of about the game and fun. These sports figures make more money in one year than school teachers make in a lifetime. There is such a disconnect on what is really important in a community.
5. I learned yesterday that all these housing developments they have been putting in town ( I would like to find out how many people have moved here in the last ten years) only have to pay a $1200 impact fee on each house. There are at least 4 developments that have schools built just for them. When I was in this school district, there were 6 junior highs, each had 2-3 elementary schools that spilled into them and two high schools. My graduating class was over 1100. That was in 1991. NOW, after the renovation and expansion of almost all of the original schools, there are 22 elementary schools (7 new) 7 junior highs (all doubled in size and built 1 extra) and 3 high schools. The graduating class are still the same numbers. My house taxes go up every year to build more schools and expand them, when the developers only pay a $1200 a house impact fee. Another county makes developers pay $5000 a house. sigh...

Things that are right in the world
1. I am sitting in my sock monkey jammies with puppy slippers on my feet and I am basically happy
2. I am slowly getting everything done and in order
3. my news program shows peoples pet pictures, everyone needs cute early in the morning
4. My house is housefly free because Luna is such a great hunter!
5. Photography class starts Tomorrow! YAY! See you there Sherry!
6. Meeting yet another Voxer this weekend, Homebody and I are going on a photowalk
7. I feel good, I need to pee, but it can wait, I am feeling my freedom right now
8. My kitties are all sleeping soundly on the tops of all the furniture and my turtle is trying to escape her new giant terrarium
9. it is not raining, not sunny, but not raining. I will go out for a bike ride to see how far along the strawberry fields are. How long do I have to wait for shortcake
10. Husband hugged me and my whole back crackled and crunched back into place. I feel great!

Here are some black and white photos I took recently. 1. Crazy Fence, this modest 1920 white house has this incredible crazy fence, the front arches about 30 feet in the air! I guess the guy is a metal artist. It just seems out of place.But in a Fun Way!
2. Footprints in the sidewalk, they are just that. Permanently embedded in the cement years and years ago. They have been there since before I was in high school and moved into the area. They are much whiter than the rest of the sidewalk, they filled them in with a different color cement.
3. Hugging plants, they are coated in the cottonwood seeds. These cottonwood seeds cover the ground making it appear it has snowed. And making every eye red and irritated
4. Broken spire, someone broke my neighbors plastic fence post. That is it I guess. Haha! I mean, it is plastic for goodness sakes.
5. Holding hands, they skated by me holding hands. I saw such sweetness. Mr. Lavender and I were along the path for an evening walk and remembered we were not much older than they were when we first laid eyes on each other. It reminded us of our beginnings.

I just realized all these pictures were taken within a few blocks of my house. If I could throw a ball like a juiced up baseball player I could hit all of these areas with a baseball.


Okay, So that Flickr segment is going to air on NPR this weekend. In the show Weekend America. I will be on talking about how I love to photograph garbage, haha! It will be like a minute long. I am going to be Famous! Haha! Kidding! Here is a linksy that shows when this program airs in your area if you are interested. I am super nervous, I hope I don't sound strange, I will to me at least.

My SIL did not give me a massage last week, but she is today, so I have to go try to prime myself for her bionic fingers. Yoga, hot shower. Try to time it for the exact time she is picking me up. ;-) Have a great day all!

Oh Yeah, YAY Barak!

I got tagged by a new neighbor, I have not done this one before and I find myself quite bored at the moment. Haha! So here we go.

that would make it 1998, I was a few months away from celebrating my 1st year wedding anniversary. I was working m butt off at Value Village. I was generally happy then, the work was really hard, but the people I worked with were so fun. Nothing exciting I guess, just life.

a) make my brother a graduation card telling him how lucky I feel to have been able to watch him grow up and to tell him to follow his dreams because if he does not try now, he will regret it later on in life.

b) replace ink in the printer and print some pictures for my neighbors

c) make a cd of family pictures for SIL wedding 

d) catch up on my hood

e) download pictures off of my camera

black licorice scottie dogs from trader joes, fruit, bread and butter, olives, and when I am feeling bad, cinnamon  rolls or vanilla cupcakes

I would sell my house and buy an old house in a neighboring town, with a view of the water, and make sure all repairs are done to it. Pay off homes of family members, set myself up for early retirement. I don't need much, my lifestyle is nice. Nothing extravagant. Maybe travel a little in an RV with husband. After our family is taken care of, along with us, I would give the excess away. Nobody needs that much money. Nobody needs a huge house for two people. I just want to keep enough to get by easily without having to work again. Oh, and loads of neat photography stuff.

that is funny, as I have always lived in this town

7th st, pioneer, 9th ave, 8th st, 5th ave, 9th st

my first job was at burger king, I worked there for 6 years, I worked at kmart part time in the evenings for 2 and a half years (this nearly killed me) Then I worked at Value Village for 5 years and then I was a preschool teacher for 5 years. Now I am a housewife, I like this one the best.

7. this is where I am supposed to tag others , so If you are bored, have at it. It was kind of fun.

Mr. Lavenders Grandpa has 8 WWII era searchlights in hiss yard. When he got out of the service they were selling these things very cheap. He bought 8 of them and started his searchlight rental business. For grand openings, car sales, etc. Now they have small ones that fit inside of a truck bed. He now has decided to sell them. We have no idea who would buy them, any suggestions? So here are a few pictures of them I took last weekend while we wee up there.