I am a true Washington native. I am the third generation born in this very town. I know this place well, not really well, just well. I know that when it is hot during the summer I can count on waking up in a cool room, pulling blankets over me in the early morning hours because it usually drops into the 60's during the night. I know that the days will cool off by 8 pm and sometimes I will pull a sweat shirt over my tank top, and put socks on as well.
This morning I woke up still sweating. My home did not cool down over night like it always does. I am up at 5am. I watched the morning news for more tips to stay cool. We are not equipped for this weather. Sure some people have fancy air conditioning they spent LOADs of money on only to use it two weeks a year. I am one who thinks that it is a frivolous purchase. This is Washington, it does not get that hot. This time of year our average temp is usually in the mid 70's. This is not an average year. We are breaking all time records for hottest temps ever. Last night was the highest low temp, it cooled down to a just below average high for this time of year. It cooled down to 71. I know to some of you living in warmer places scoff at my complaints. That is okay, I have a very narrow frame of refrence. My body has only experienced these temps while camping in the desert side of washington as a kid. BUT the difference is that at night, even after a near 100 degree day, it would cool down rapidly. The heat would radiate off of the rocks, creating brisk winds cooling you down wonderfully.
My friend Waterbaby calls me a weather wimp (maybe I am ;-P) I have never felt a 100 degree day while at my own home. I do not have AC, I have a wall of windows that (are closed and have drapes and curtains over them) heat my home up as soon as the sun hits them. I have felt these temps but I have been in an AC car, then to a home or hotel with AC. We are looking at record breaking highs today. sigh. I will sit on the bed, drinking insane ammounts of water, while feeling my turbo fan blowing directly on my skin. It is already 86 degrees and only 10 am... that is already higher than our average daytime highs.
I also have a laundry line with two loads of damp laundry hanging on it. They will be dry in NO time! Ha!
This morning I woke up still sweating. My home did not cool down over night like it always does. I am up at 5am. I watched the morning news for more tips to stay cool. We are not equipped for this weather. Sure some people have fancy air conditioning they spent LOADs of money on only to use it two weeks a year. I am one who thinks that it is a frivolous purchase. This is Washington, it does not get that hot. This time of year our average temp is usually in the mid 70's. This is not an average year. We are breaking all time records for hottest temps ever. Last night was the highest low temp, it cooled down to a just below average high for this time of year. It cooled down to 71. I know to some of you living in warmer places scoff at my complaints. That is okay, I have a very narrow frame of refrence. My body has only experienced these temps while camping in the desert side of washington as a kid. BUT the difference is that at night, even after a near 100 degree day, it would cool down rapidly. The heat would radiate off of the rocks, creating brisk winds cooling you down wonderfully.
My friend Waterbaby calls me a weather wimp (maybe I am ;-P) I have never felt a 100 degree day while at my own home. I do not have AC, I have a wall of windows that (are closed and have drapes and curtains over them) heat my home up as soon as the sun hits them. I have felt these temps but I have been in an AC car, then to a home or hotel with AC. We are looking at record breaking highs today. sigh. I will sit on the bed, drinking insane ammounts of water, while feeling my turbo fan blowing directly on my skin. It is already 86 degrees and only 10 am... that is already higher than our average daytime highs.
I also have a laundry line with two loads of damp laundry hanging on it. They will be dry in NO time! Ha!
Tuesdays Things:
yuck...
1. having 94+ degree days when average temps are usually in the 70's for this time of year (they said maybe 100 today... ;-l )
2. not buying that box fan at the store last week
3. have to wait for the concrete to dry before drying my clothes outside
4. Mr. L waking me up at 5:30am by taking the fan out of the stuffy bedroom
YAY!
1. I found a fan in the garage that I bought on clearance last winter (that is usually when I buy fans, when they are cheap)
2. My "turbo" fan, man, that thing blows!
3. 6 blocks of ice ready to be placed in front of a fan in the bedroom, what, it works a little bit. Mr. L went to the store and picked me up 6 blocks of ice this morning
4. my little tree shades my entire bedroom wall
5. laptop in the bedroom (the coolest room in the house) I was able to watch TV on hulu last night while drinking bunches of water
6. tonight my laundry line should be ready to go!
7. my new bed (tempur-pedic) I have fallen in love with my bed, I am glad we have that one now rather than the lumpy bumpy one because after about 3:30 that room is the only room tolerable in the house (thank goodness I have one!)
8. Made some goat cheese salad dressing last night, it is quite yummy. Salad for lunch!
9. reading a lot lately
10. I feel pretty good for waking up at 5:30am
11. I really like a few of the pictures I took up at mt. rainier
12. I am making a fresh mozzarella pasta salad, the cooked noodles are in the fridge cooling right now
13. I feel a smile across my face
14. I got a few more pieces of artwork in the mail for my wall in the bedroom. Thanks Etsy Artists! (will post the wall when it is done)
15. I am already up to 15 things that make me happy, and that makes me happy
16. cold baths and showers
17. deoderant (I am just saying I am glad it exists)
18. smoothie for breakfast, all icy and yummy. Yogurt, almond milk, banana, OJ, flax oil, strawberries, blueberries, raspberries (all bought at the local farmers market, then we froze them, and used the food saver to save the food)
19. feeling alive inside
20. this web site is delightful they have featured two of my photos. I am a fan. It is called Kind over Matter, being kind makes me feel incredible, like my heart dances inside my chest
21. I am packing some of my homemade soap to share with the food bank, it is just sitting there losing its scent and soap seems to be something people ask if we have.
22. Picking up an extra shift at the food bank on Friday, I like that they like me enough to call me in when they need someone
23. wet wash cloths in the refridgerator waiting to be placed on my warm neck this evening
I am going to leave it there... it is already 80 degrees here and it is only 8:30... sigh. We broke a record low, (highest low in July history ever!) it cooled down to only 70 degrees last night.
Have a great day!
yuck...
1. having 94+ degree days when average temps are usually in the 70's for this time of year (they said maybe 100 today... ;-l )
2. not buying that box fan at the store last week
3. have to wait for the concrete to dry before drying my clothes outside
4. Mr. L waking me up at 5:30am by taking the fan out of the stuffy bedroom
YAY!
1. I found a fan in the garage that I bought on clearance last winter (that is usually when I buy fans, when they are cheap)
2. My "turbo" fan, man, that thing blows!
3. 6 blocks of ice ready to be placed in front of a fan in the bedroom, what, it works a little bit. Mr. L went to the store and picked me up 6 blocks of ice this morning
4. my little tree shades my entire bedroom wall
5. laptop in the bedroom (the coolest room in the house) I was able to watch TV on hulu last night while drinking bunches of water
6. tonight my laundry line should be ready to go!
7. my new bed (tempur-pedic) I have fallen in love with my bed, I am glad we have that one now rather than the lumpy bumpy one because after about 3:30 that room is the only room tolerable in the house (thank goodness I have one!)
8. Made some goat cheese salad dressing last night, it is quite yummy. Salad for lunch!
9. reading a lot lately
10. I feel pretty good for waking up at 5:30am
11. I really like a few of the pictures I took up at mt. rainier
12. I am making a fresh mozzarella pasta salad, the cooked noodles are in the fridge cooling right now
13. I feel a smile across my face
14. I got a few more pieces of artwork in the mail for my wall in the bedroom. Thanks Etsy Artists! (will post the wall when it is done)
15. I am already up to 15 things that make me happy, and that makes me happy
16. cold baths and showers
17. deoderant (I am just saying I am glad it exists)
18. smoothie for breakfast, all icy and yummy. Yogurt, almond milk, banana, OJ, flax oil, strawberries, blueberries, raspberries (all bought at the local farmers market, then we froze them, and used the food saver to save the food)
19. feeling alive inside
20. this web site is delightful they have featured two of my photos. I am a fan. It is called Kind over Matter, being kind makes me feel incredible, like my heart dances inside my chest
21. I am packing some of my homemade soap to share with the food bank, it is just sitting there losing its scent and soap seems to be something people ask if we have.
22. Picking up an extra shift at the food bank on Friday, I like that they like me enough to call me in when they need someone
23. wet wash cloths in the refridgerator waiting to be placed on my warm neck this evening
I am going to leave it there... it is already 80 degrees here and it is only 8:30... sigh. We broke a record low, (highest low in July history ever!) it cooled down to only 70 degrees last night.
Have a great day!
I had a somewhat quiet weekend. Warm, and quiet. The weather is quite warm for me. I have friends that are Loving the hot temps, they have jobs that have them in air conditioned places, and a home with AC, and cars with AC. I have no job, my home has several fans blowing warm air around, and my car windows roll down so you can feel the warm air hitting your skin. On the upside, I convinced Mr. L to buy a clothes line for the back yard. It is Great weather to dry laundry outside! There is NO WAY I will be folding hot clothes out of a dryer this week and Mr. L needs some undies. ;-) I have always wanted a clothes line.
Went to half price books because I have finished the four I had here, I know I have another pile of to reads somewhere, but it is buried and I can't find it. I picked up three books I thought sounded interesting. I know a few of you write book reviews so I will be re-reading those and looking for titles and authors. Suggestions are great too. I just read two David Sedaris books "dress your family in Courderoy and denim?" something like that, and "I talk pretty?" something like that, I am terrible at remembering titles. He is great, I love to laugh while I read. I also read two Sherman Alexie books "the absolutely true story of a part time indian" and oh goodness, I can't remember the title.. the last two he published. I need more coffee...
Books I bought:
1. "the Boy Detective fails" by Joe Meno... I judged the book by it's lovely cover art.. It sounds sad, but I think I can handle it.
2. "Things my girlfriend and I have argued about" by Mil Millington Sounds amusing and his name is fun
3. "Valentines" by Olaf Olafsson (again with the fun author name)
I am reading "waiter rant" right now and I am a little Meh about it. I am about half way through it and feel obligated to finish.
We also bought three CD's at the bookstore too.
1. Modest Mouse- we were dead before the ship sank (it was $7 and it was brand new still shrink wrapped)
2.PJ harvey- Uh Huh Her (it has been a long time since I have picked up one of her albums)
3.The Smiths- The world won't listen (We popped this in the car stereo and sang along while we drove to the waterfront enjoying the warm air. Funny how I still know most of the words to the boy with the thorn in his side. We only have a couple Smiths CD's, we have BUNCHES of tapes and a few records, this shows how old I am.)
okay.. I think that is it for now.
*I recovered from that yucky flu type thing just in time for us to spend a LOVELY three day weekend together. It was our 12 year wedding anniversary. Mr. L had the idea to go up to Paradise on Mt. Rainier. It was such a lovely idea that I think half the state decided to join us. ha! It was actually a free weekend, you did not have to pay the $15 to get in Mt. Rainier National forest. We did not know this and there were plenty of people at every viewpoint, and rest stop. Funny thing is that when we went on a couple of small hikes, we were all alone. I guess most people like to see nature through a dusty windshield.
*I let the whole weekend pass and decided to clean up the bedroom starting on Monday. That gave me three days to get all that crap out of there. I woke up feeling not great and quite cranky. Then a fever started, mild, I still tried to get all the dirty laundry out of the bedroom (this was the first step). I started having to pee every 15 minutes, then it became painful, then there was blood. Went to the doctor and it was an infection. I started my antibiotics that night. I was in pain. I have never had a UTI before. Ugh... I was down for the count on tuesday. I got nothing done, and was stressing out about the room, and being well enough to shoot that fancy fashion show on Wednesday. I was well enough by wednesday and did not get much done in the bedroom because I had to get my equipment ready for the show.
*the fashion show was lovely, great designs, some not so great, but I like the creativity that goes along with creating these fashions. There were ladies dressed in outfits that cost more than my mortgage payment. This is how I see things. Clothing is a necessity, but it is not necessary to spend $800 on a jacket. $800 could buy groceries, pay quite a few bills, a new lens (yes slightly frivolous), save it for something you actually need, feed strangers, 200 coats, it can spay or neuter about 8 low income cats so we don't have so many strays, you get my point. I love the design, but would happily pay $30 for a cheap knock off.
*My sister wrote about it on her blog. She posted the pictures from the event which was definitely NOT my best work. I dont think I will post any on my flickr site. She also wrote about the slutty fashion show we went to the previous week, and posted my pictures from that as well, they will not go on my flickr site because I felt kind of bad taking those types of pictures, the ones where women are acting like whores. Not my proudest photographic oments. We left early because we could not stand any more.
*Mr. L being the kindest man in the world, took Thursday (yesterday) off work to help me clean the bedroom before the truck came with our bed. Together we did SO much work!!! I am embarassed to say this, but I want to be honest. We found 23 empty water bottles under the bed and in the piles of misc. around the bed, three plastic cups we always wondered what happened to, several seperated socks we considered long gone, books, dust bunnies big enough to really be a bunny, three bags of trash, two containers of recycle type items, and a beautiful hard wood floor. Now don't get me wrong, there are dresser tops stacked dangerously high still, and a few boxes of things we dont really know what is in them, but it is a major start. I don't feel completely overwhelmed when I step into the doorway of our bedroom anymore. I can do it!
*our bed came at 10:30 am. Mr L has a pretty bad curve in his spine, and it does not take much for him to put it out of allignment. Our last bed was making both of us twist in unnatural ways, and creating many problems. We tested out the tempurpedic matterss, Mr. L felt immediate relief. He could feel his hips resting evenly into the foam, he could feel himself relaxing. He recieved a bonus from work and we went ahead and bout the expensive bed. After one night with it he feels as much relief as when I switched his pillow to a buckwheat pillow. That was a pretty big change. It is also the first morning I have had in YEARS where I truly did not want to get out of bed. When you get off the mattress it is almost like getting out of the pool. Your body feels so heavy. Lovely. I put a mattress cover on it to ward off any stains. This matterss has a 20 year warranty, but it is null and void if it is soiled in any way. (helios puked on the last one, so we could not return it for another) I really hope that it hold up well for the next twenty years. *fingers crossed*
*today. I am feeling good, well rested, but still a little tired. I have PILES of laundry to clean, and a sink full of dirty dishes too. I will put a dent in the laundry today. Tomorrow I go to a local photograhy class, and sunday we celebrate my grandfathers birthday. another packed weekend.
Off to conquer the pile of laundry!
It is true, I have never learned how to swim.
I remember swimming in a pool with my mother, I was very young, probably 3. It was an indoor pool and all the sounds of water echoed and reflected off of pale gray walls. I remember watching my father jump into the pool and disappear under the blue water then appear right in front of me, Surprise! I remember my bathing suit was too tight on my legs and my mothers not firm enough grip on my tiny ribcage. I did not feel safe. I did not like this water, I could not see the bottom and did not know what was there. My mother tried to show me how to kick my legs, I did and she would let go, I could feel the water cover my ears then my eyes. I was grabbed and brought back up again. My eyes and nose burned, I cried. She did it again and again.
I did not learn how to swim.
I live in Washington state so there was not much of a need to learn to swim. We did not live by a lake, we did not go to lakes for vacation, we did not have a pool. When we did go to the water, It was for wading only, Washington water is very cold and our summers are not that hot.
I never learned how to swim.
When I was a "tween" as they call it, about 6th grade or maybe older, my grandparents who lived next door built a pool. I learned the basics, floating, dog paddle, and then I just knew how to move in the water to make myself not drown. There was a diving board which I used a total of 5 times. I found out I hated being underwater. HATED it. I hate the feeling of chlorine burning my eyes and the feeling of water up my nose. So I learned to play in the water with my head above the waves. I lived there until I was about 15 then only swam a handful of times but mostly just waded in the water.
I kind of learned to swim.
Yesterday I walked down to the local public pool. I have not owned a bathing suit in several years, like maybe ten or more years. swimming is supposed to be good for you, people enjoy it, and I have a cute new bathing suit. I get down to the pool and as soon as I opened the door that thick warm chlorine smell filled my head. I got a little nervous. Everyone there had their kids there, nobody was there alone, just me. Also it is in my old high school so all my old insecurities all came rushing back. But wait, I have boobs now, I am not super skinny, and I am an adult! What do I have to be worried about? does it really matter if one gal says to another gal "look at her" and laugh? Nope! Not at all. I walk through a pack of teenagers to get to the locker room, they laugh and I automatically think it is about me then I talk myself out of that. The locker room is empty, phew. Locker rooms always make me nervous. I lock up my bag and my butterfly dress I wore over the top of my bathing suit and my red shoes with a lock from home. I grab my turquoise towel and make my way to the pool. I am scared of slipping, the floor is slick. I open the door to the locker room that opens to the pool, the sounds of children laughing and splashing fill the room. I walk to the ladder and ease myself in, I was being eyed by three tween boys. They were probably wondering why this lady was swimming without her kids. They stared quietly, it made me uncomfortable, I smiled and checked to make sure the suit was covering me, yup I was covered quite well. I jumped in and made my way to the back corner where there was nobody swimming besides a grandma and her granddaughter with swimmies and a flotation devise who was too shy to play with the other kids.
She did not know how to swim.
I start to swim, or what I call swimming anyways, across the lanes. I flipped on my back and floated. It felt so good, I felt so light. I stared at the purple and yellow flags stating the team name strung across the ceiling wishing I had a camera in my eye to take these pictures. I felt like I was in a dream world, the sounds of the children playing and splashing sounded strange underwater, quieter, I could hear my own thoughts above it all. "I could float forever" I thought. I splashed around some more. The water was cool and soft and I was getting tired. I had been in the water a half an hour, that is good enough for today I said to myself. Then I swam over to the same ladder I used to get in. I took the first step, then the second. I can't believe how heavy I felt. I pulled myself out of the pool and walked heavily to my bright blue towel. With every step I was aware of the slick floor and just how weightless I had felt the whole time in the pool. I liked it, the weightless part. I get into the locker room which is filled with girls, teens and children. Ugh... I open my locker and dry myself off best I could, slipped my polyester butterfly dress over the top of my bathing suit, slip on my red and white shoes and leave. I walked home feeling my full weight on my feet. My legs felt weak. Inside my home I turned on the fans opened the doors took a quick shower and laid on the couch for a nap.
I dreamed I could swim like Esther Williams.
I remember swimming in a pool with my mother, I was very young, probably 3. It was an indoor pool and all the sounds of water echoed and reflected off of pale gray walls. I remember watching my father jump into the pool and disappear under the blue water then appear right in front of me, Surprise! I remember my bathing suit was too tight on my legs and my mothers not firm enough grip on my tiny ribcage. I did not feel safe. I did not like this water, I could not see the bottom and did not know what was there. My mother tried to show me how to kick my legs, I did and she would let go, I could feel the water cover my ears then my eyes. I was grabbed and brought back up again. My eyes and nose burned, I cried. She did it again and again.
I did not learn how to swim.
I live in Washington state so there was not much of a need to learn to swim. We did not live by a lake, we did not go to lakes for vacation, we did not have a pool. When we did go to the water, It was for wading only, Washington water is very cold and our summers are not that hot.
I never learned how to swim.
When I was a "tween" as they call it, about 6th grade or maybe older, my grandparents who lived next door built a pool. I learned the basics, floating, dog paddle, and then I just knew how to move in the water to make myself not drown. There was a diving board which I used a total of 5 times. I found out I hated being underwater. HATED it. I hate the feeling of chlorine burning my eyes and the feeling of water up my nose. So I learned to play in the water with my head above the waves. I lived there until I was about 15 then only swam a handful of times but mostly just waded in the water.
I kind of learned to swim.
Yesterday I walked down to the local public pool. I have not owned a bathing suit in several years, like maybe ten or more years. swimming is supposed to be good for you, people enjoy it, and I have a cute new bathing suit. I get down to the pool and as soon as I opened the door that thick warm chlorine smell filled my head. I got a little nervous. Everyone there had their kids there, nobody was there alone, just me. Also it is in my old high school so all my old insecurities all came rushing back. But wait, I have boobs now, I am not super skinny, and I am an adult! What do I have to be worried about? does it really matter if one gal says to another gal "look at her" and laugh? Nope! Not at all. I walk through a pack of teenagers to get to the locker room, they laugh and I automatically think it is about me then I talk myself out of that. The locker room is empty, phew. Locker rooms always make me nervous. I lock up my bag and my butterfly dress I wore over the top of my bathing suit and my red shoes with a lock from home. I grab my turquoise towel and make my way to the pool. I am scared of slipping, the floor is slick. I open the door to the locker room that opens to the pool, the sounds of children laughing and splashing fill the room. I walk to the ladder and ease myself in, I was being eyed by three tween boys. They were probably wondering why this lady was swimming without her kids. They stared quietly, it made me uncomfortable, I smiled and checked to make sure the suit was covering me, yup I was covered quite well. I jumped in and made my way to the back corner where there was nobody swimming besides a grandma and her granddaughter with swimmies and a flotation devise who was too shy to play with the other kids.
She did not know how to swim.
I start to swim, or what I call swimming anyways, across the lanes. I flipped on my back and floated. It felt so good, I felt so light. I stared at the purple and yellow flags stating the team name strung across the ceiling wishing I had a camera in my eye to take these pictures. I felt like I was in a dream world, the sounds of the children playing and splashing sounded strange underwater, quieter, I could hear my own thoughts above it all. "I could float forever" I thought. I splashed around some more. The water was cool and soft and I was getting tired. I had been in the water a half an hour, that is good enough for today I said to myself. Then I swam over to the same ladder I used to get in. I took the first step, then the second. I can't believe how heavy I felt. I pulled myself out of the pool and walked heavily to my bright blue towel. With every step I was aware of the slick floor and just how weightless I had felt the whole time in the pool. I liked it, the weightless part. I get into the locker room which is filled with girls, teens and children. Ugh... I open my locker and dry myself off best I could, slipped my polyester butterfly dress over the top of my bathing suit, slip on my red and white shoes and leave. I walked home feeling my full weight on my feet. My legs felt weak. Inside my home I turned on the fans opened the doors took a quick shower and laid on the couch for a nap.
I dreamed I could swim like Esther Williams.
Lately my mind has been all go and my body has been hitting some roadblocks.
I have been a little ill lately. I thought on Monday I was going to start cleaning out my bedroom, but I seemed to have caught a bug on saturday that held on tightly. So I decided to rest a little. Tuesday I woke up with a splitting headache. It was a mean one, it made me cry! I could not look outside at the sunshine, it hurt, I could not walk around I felt so dizzy. Your basic nasty migraine I guess. So I hid in the bedroom almost all day. Today, I can feel the points on my skull where there is tightness, but it is a manageable pain.
My bed was going to be delivered tomorrow. They called (or an automated calling system called) this morning and said it was to be delivered saturday. What? NO! this weekend is my 12 year wedding anniversary! The last thing I want to be doing is waiting for a bed to be delivered. Not my idea of a romantic weekend.
I call the number the automated number said to call. I was put on hold, then they asked about a certain date, gah... seriously! My calender has three dates where it could not work, and they hit every single one. I listened to four horrid pop songs from three different decades. We finally found a date, next thursday. What a pain in the ass.
The bright spot in the delay is that I get more time to get my bedroom cleaned out. I can rest and let this bug or whatever it is that is making me feel icky run it's course. I think it is mostly gone now though.
Well, I think I am going to go out into the weather, the sunny nice warm weather.
I have been a little ill lately. I thought on Monday I was going to start cleaning out my bedroom, but I seemed to have caught a bug on saturday that held on tightly. So I decided to rest a little. Tuesday I woke up with a splitting headache. It was a mean one, it made me cry! I could not look outside at the sunshine, it hurt, I could not walk around I felt so dizzy. Your basic nasty migraine I guess. So I hid in the bedroom almost all day. Today, I can feel the points on my skull where there is tightness, but it is a manageable pain.
My bed was going to be delivered tomorrow. They called (or an automated calling system called) this morning and said it was to be delivered saturday. What? NO! this weekend is my 12 year wedding anniversary! The last thing I want to be doing is waiting for a bed to be delivered. Not my idea of a romantic weekend.
I call the number the automated number said to call. I was put on hold, then they asked about a certain date, gah... seriously! My calender has three dates where it could not work, and they hit every single one. I listened to four horrid pop songs from three different decades. We finally found a date, next thursday. What a pain in the ass.
The bright spot in the delay is that I get more time to get my bedroom cleaned out. I can rest and let this bug or whatever it is that is making me feel icky run it's course. I think it is mostly gone now though.
Well, I think I am going to go out into the weather, the sunny nice warm weather.
The worst room in my house has to be our bedroom. It is so cluttered, years of piling things from the living areas into the bedroom to accomodate guests, bags of clothes we don't wear that need to be let go, piles of laundry, piles of ironing, piles of, who knows what. Water bottles and stray socks litter the floor below our bed, also dust bunnies so large my cats are afraid to go under there. (no Stephel, I will not photograph my shame)
Our mattress set has been giving us woes lately. We have created the grand canyon in the middle of the mattress, sleeping not flat but slightly twisted has been giving me a stiff neck. We bought a new mattress set. With a headboard and foot board too. Funny how the gal showed me all these giant wood frames that cost more than the mattresses, and the one in the store I am drawn to is the cheapest one. It is a metal frame, and looks like an old victorian frame, not the opulent scrolling frames, but the ones poor people owned from the time. I like utilitarian objects, so humble and beautiful in their simplicity. Plus, I think the giant bed frames made of wood would have taken up all the space.
We are having this new set delivered on Thursday. I have two days to gut that room. I feel motivated but my head and belly disagree. I can only stand for a little while before I feel quite dizzy, and the bathroom has been my BFF lately. I am going to try and do as much as I can.
wish me luck
Our mattress set has been giving us woes lately. We have created the grand canyon in the middle of the mattress, sleeping not flat but slightly twisted has been giving me a stiff neck. We bought a new mattress set. With a headboard and foot board too. Funny how the gal showed me all these giant wood frames that cost more than the mattresses, and the one in the store I am drawn to is the cheapest one. It is a metal frame, and looks like an old victorian frame, not the opulent scrolling frames, but the ones poor people owned from the time. I like utilitarian objects, so humble and beautiful in their simplicity. Plus, I think the giant bed frames made of wood would have taken up all the space.
We are having this new set delivered on Thursday. I have two days to gut that room. I feel motivated but my head and belly disagree. I can only stand for a little while before I feel quite dizzy, and the bathroom has been my BFF lately. I am going to try and do as much as I can.
wish me luck
Okay... I have lots of thoughts roaming in and out of my head. Had an anxious night of sleep lastnight.
1.I hate being aware of my intestines. I have had some discomfort all weekend. By discomfort I mean... well yuckyness.
2. My photography class was canceled this weekend so I had a little bit of free time, so I went ahead and got sick.
3. Saturday my baby sister came over and we went to find me a cocktail dress for the fashion show on the 22nd. It is a simple dress, from the 1950's. Blue fabric with a slight sheen. It feels really good on, not too tight, but I can still move around in it. It is really simple so I can dress it up with bunches of different accessories and make it have several different looks. It cost me a pretty penny because I found it at a vintage clothing store instead of a thrift store. I had a time crunch. I will be able to wear it a lot though, that is good. I was scared of paying bunches of money for something I won't ever wear.
4. I ordered myself a vintage style swim cap to go with my adorable vintage style bathing suit. If my intestines calm down enough, I will go swim today.
5. The sunshine is hiding again, making me want to just crawl right back in bed and sleep the days away until it returns.
6. Learning lessons from the new macro lens. She told me that I need to use a higher Fstop when really close, and also she warned me about slight breezes, they are not our friend.
7. One of Mr. L's cousins asked me if I could take pictures of their family. I said yes, because family are the perfect people to try things out on. Like I have never shot a family before, so they will be the perfect guinea pigs! ha!
8. Baby sister and I went to a "fashion show" "model" contest on Saturday night. At first I was really trying to take nice pictures of them, but they were being so slutty that I leaned to my sister and asked if we had accidentally ended up at the open call for Fox's (a strip club chain) so after a while I gave up on making them look nice and let them just be skanks. A major blog is brewing in my head with this one. The pictures I took at that "fashion show" (in quotes because it was NOT a fashion show) these shots will not be on my flickr account... I felt shame for them because they obviously did not.
9. My house has fallen into all sorts of ruin this last weekend. All the progress I made has been undone. I feel like Sisyphus, rolling that rock up a hill. Only my rock is dirty dishes, laundry and clutter galore.
10. I don't know what else to say... so I will end here.
EDIT
11. Oh yeah, I was innocently looking through my emails when I saw someone added me as a neighbor here. I looked at the naked lady avatar and wondered "Hmm... is she gagged? what is on her mouth?" then it came into focus "OH MY GOD it is a Dick!!!!" I started to panic because Mr. L was walking over to the computer, I did not want to get caught looking at porn! Like Mr. L would believe I would look at that stuff anyway, but I finally deleted it just before Mr. L made it to the screen...
Dear Pornographers,
Please do not add me to your neighborhood. I do not like seeing your vaginas or your dicks or any combination of the two. I am a squeaky clean cut gal, who still blushes when seeing classical nude sculptures. I don't like having your private parts shoved in my face, it is not okay. I was just drinking my morning smoothie on a lazy sunday. I was not prepared for naked man parts on my computer screen. I understand it is yor right to take these pictures and like these types of images, but it is also my right to not have to see them.
Thanks for your time,
Lavender
1.I hate being aware of my intestines. I have had some discomfort all weekend. By discomfort I mean... well yuckyness.
2. My photography class was canceled this weekend so I had a little bit of free time, so I went ahead and got sick.
3. Saturday my baby sister came over and we went to find me a cocktail dress for the fashion show on the 22nd. It is a simple dress, from the 1950's. Blue fabric with a slight sheen. It feels really good on, not too tight, but I can still move around in it. It is really simple so I can dress it up with bunches of different accessories and make it have several different looks. It cost me a pretty penny because I found it at a vintage clothing store instead of a thrift store. I had a time crunch. I will be able to wear it a lot though, that is good. I was scared of paying bunches of money for something I won't ever wear.
4. I ordered myself a vintage style swim cap to go with my adorable vintage style bathing suit. If my intestines calm down enough, I will go swim today.
5. The sunshine is hiding again, making me want to just crawl right back in bed and sleep the days away until it returns.
6. Learning lessons from the new macro lens. She told me that I need to use a higher Fstop when really close, and also she warned me about slight breezes, they are not our friend.
7. One of Mr. L's cousins asked me if I could take pictures of their family. I said yes, because family are the perfect people to try things out on. Like I have never shot a family before, so they will be the perfect guinea pigs! ha!
8. Baby sister and I went to a "fashion show" "model" contest on Saturday night. At first I was really trying to take nice pictures of them, but they were being so slutty that I leaned to my sister and asked if we had accidentally ended up at the open call for Fox's (a strip club chain) so after a while I gave up on making them look nice and let them just be skanks. A major blog is brewing in my head with this one. The pictures I took at that "fashion show" (in quotes because it was NOT a fashion show) these shots will not be on my flickr account... I felt shame for them because they obviously did not.
9. My house has fallen into all sorts of ruin this last weekend. All the progress I made has been undone. I feel like Sisyphus, rolling that rock up a hill. Only my rock is dirty dishes, laundry and clutter galore.
10. I don't know what else to say... so I will end here.
EDIT
11. Oh yeah, I was innocently looking through my emails when I saw someone added me as a neighbor here. I looked at the naked lady avatar and wondered "Hmm... is she gagged? what is on her mouth?" then it came into focus "OH MY GOD it is a Dick!!!!" I started to panic because Mr. L was walking over to the computer, I did not want to get caught looking at porn! Like Mr. L would believe I would look at that stuff anyway, but I finally deleted it just before Mr. L made it to the screen...
Dear Pornographers,
Please do not add me to your neighborhood. I do not like seeing your vaginas or your dicks or any combination of the two. I am a squeaky clean cut gal, who still blushes when seeing classical nude sculptures. I don't like having your private parts shoved in my face, it is not okay. I was just drinking my morning smoothie on a lazy sunday. I was not prepared for naked man parts on my computer screen. I understand it is yor right to take these pictures and like these types of images, but it is also my right to not have to see them.
Thanks for your time,
Lavender
I don't have much time:
1. before this lovely washington weather turns gray for nine months, heard we are having another soggy winter. I NEED to get my house in order this summer. Rooms organized and gutted!!!
2. before I have to jump in the shower
3. before the mail lady comes s I have to mail a few things
4. before I have to eat lunch
5. before I have to take the chicken out of the oven to let it cool and place it in the fridge.
6. before I hug Mr. L and greet him at the front door when he comes home this evening
7. I have to jump on Clementine and get down to the food bank for my shift, last week I helped my first homeless family, mom dad and a young girl. It hurt me inside more than I thought it would.
8. before my 12 year wedding anniversary is here, next weekend we will celebrate this lovely holiday
9. before we will be celebrating our 24th wedding anniversary, the first twelve years flew by, I am sure the next twelve will do the same
10. before I brew more coffee to get through the rest of the day
11. before my sunburn stops peeling making me look like a lizard molting her skin
12. before TWO fashion shows I will shoot, one tomorrow night and another in a couple weeks
13. before I must try on several cocktail dresses with bay sister tomorrow, I will own a fancy dress tomorrow that will sit in my closet for the next few years until I need to be fancy again.
I must go now and get my day started. Trust me *smells armpits* I need that shower first...
1. before this lovely washington weather turns gray for nine months, heard we are having another soggy winter. I NEED to get my house in order this summer. Rooms organized and gutted!!!
2. before I have to jump in the shower
3. before the mail lady comes s I have to mail a few things
4. before I have to eat lunch
5. before I have to take the chicken out of the oven to let it cool and place it in the fridge.
6. before I hug Mr. L and greet him at the front door when he comes home this evening
7. I have to jump on Clementine and get down to the food bank for my shift, last week I helped my first homeless family, mom dad and a young girl. It hurt me inside more than I thought it would.
8. before my 12 year wedding anniversary is here, next weekend we will celebrate this lovely holiday
9. before we will be celebrating our 24th wedding anniversary, the first twelve years flew by, I am sure the next twelve will do the same
10. before I brew more coffee to get through the rest of the day
11. before my sunburn stops peeling making me look like a lizard molting her skin
12. before TWO fashion shows I will shoot, one tomorrow night and another in a couple weeks
13. before I must try on several cocktail dresses with bay sister tomorrow, I will own a fancy dress tomorrow that will sit in my closet for the next few years until I need to be fancy again.
I must go now and get my day started. Trust me *smells armpits* I need that shower first...
I am anxious and sad. I feel like I could cry at any moment, over what? I have no idea. I am just feeling low. The sunshine is hiding behind clouds, it looks like it may rain. I feel like I was running full speed ahead to something great, like a clean house, or a peaceful life, or just comfort, and I tripped and fell. I feel like it is impossible to get that momentum going again. Crazy how the chemicals in your brain work. How the hormones in your body can make a roller coaster out of such an ordinary life like my own. I am up and then suddenly down.
When the sun left it took my motivation, my energy, my smile, with it.
Come back sunshine, I only have access to you a few months out of the year here in the pacific northwest. These short months is when I get my stuff done!
