fancy pants and high heels
So Mr. L told me on Monday "did I mention that the Company christmas brunch is on Saturday?"
EEEK! I have to dress up, I dont have dress up clothes! I get a little worked up meeting the people Mr. L works with. I have this thing where I don't feel smart enough because I barely graduated high school and worked fast food for 6 years, never made more than a dollar above minimum wage. I feel stupid. I know I am not, Mr. L would not have married me if I was. He is SO smart. I don't feel pretty enough because I turn into that awkward junior high girl the boys used to bark at laughing calling me a dog.
This year seems different. I am not scared really, just a little nervous because I don't know them, only know of them. I am not that ugly, in fact I am not bad looking at all. I look like me, and that is okay. I don't have to play trivial pursuit with these people, just chat about the weather and maybe photography. I can do that.
Well, Mr. L was a peach and brought me to the discount clothing store, Ross to find something nice to wear. I tried on 9 dresses. Here is what I bought:
1 black dress, not tight one of those loose dresses
1 black and magenta dress
1 pair black opaque tights with control top
1 pair of shiny silver sparkly tights
1 pair of fancy red knee highs
2 black cardigans different styles, one has 3 quarter length sleeves
1 necklace, silver medallion with matching dangly earrings probably mostly made of lead
black bra
black bra that can be made into a haulter
1 paid black shiny high heel mary janes with flower detail
1 pair red high heels with two strap mary janes
So I bought enough to make sure I have something I feel comfy with, two complete outfits. With mix and match stuff.
I know that sounds like a boatload of money, and trust me to me it was, I still feel a bit nauseous.
I spent $135. EEK! I guess that all of Mr. L's bonus does not go in the savings account. sigh....
I was thinking of photographing myself in all the different combos to get your feedback. But I don't know how to put those photos on this laptop.
I am quite happy because I am so comfortable in both of those dresses. They are soft and comfy. I may make a brooch, a christmasy one to go on a black sweater. Maybe some green felt leaves with red vintage button berries. I will experiment. Well, off to battle the laundry monster.
Comments
thats a steal!
Right I think its look in the mirror time & acting lessons for you my girl LoL! And no I am not joking I will let you in on an amazing secret that very few people actually know ready - everyone & yes I mean everyone is insecure! Wow didn't see that coming right? so what you need to do is go stand in front of a mirror say loads of those self affirming thing you have been saying to your self on the blog like you had a good rack (that one cracked me up) and even if you don't believe them (I know you do, well some of them) you have to act like you do! And you have to keep believing these things all through the party because we believe them here so you would be calling us a bunch of liars and we aren’t a you have to act them at the party - when you get home you can go all washy again if you want - we won't tell! LoL but if you act these thing people who really don’t know you will believe them as they are them selves trying to hide they’re insecurities – trust me – I’m great at breaking the ice most people never know that I’m as scared as hell & want my mummy, most times I have to try hard to relax & not come across all needy this didn’t always used to be the case it was often the opposite but you just have to learn to let go & not care a little anyhoo good luck Seeya Hugya *G*